I got up early, and was going to write on my blog, go to yoga, and get tedious chores done. I had everything timed in order to best fit my schedule into my busy day according to how I thought it should flow.
As I sat down to write I was overcome buy a sense of writers block. I would try and write, take a break, come back to my desk, struggle with the writing again. But the words just wouldn't flow.
I needed to get my blog post done because my yoga class was at 10:45 and I really wanted to attend. Meanwhile as the words were stuck in my brain, my dog Ellie was going stir crazy. She kept trying to get my attention by chewing on things like my favorite pair of shoes, grabbing the toliet paper roll and streaming it all over the yard, sitting next to me staring with her forlorn sad eyes, and just generally being a pest.
Between chasing Ellie around the house cleaning up whatever mess she made and trying to push through the writers block, I was getting nothing done as I planned. I found my mood shifting to frustration and irritation. I sat and thought "okay, what I am doing is not working, so what do I need to be doing?"
The answer came to me: take Ellie to the dog park and let her work off her energy. That meant I would not get my blog post done and I would miss my yoga class.
I looked online and found that there was another class that I could take later in the day. I was a little nervous because it was more advanced class and I wasn't sure my body would be up to the challenge, but I crossed my fingers, hoped for the best, and signed up.
Meanwhile, poor Ellie had not been out of the house/yard in about three weeks. When I adopted Ellie she had heart worms and after treatment she could not be spayed for six months. For the past 20 days she had been in heat, and not wanting to risk a pregnancy, I kept her home. She was more than ready to run and play, so off to the dog park we went. While Ellie ran around meeting new dogs and people, I was able to get some exercise in by walking around the dog park and just enjoying life. We both had a great time! Ellie got to work off excess energy and the walk was rejuvenating for me.
I came home, changed, and headed off to my yoga class. Even though it was a more advanced class, I knew the instructor, and had taken classes with her before. The class was small and intimate. As we started working into our postures, my instructor came over and did gentle corrections, like helping me place my hands in the correct direction, or assisting me to deeper into the posture. As the class continued, we started doing poses that involved balance and holding the weigh of ones body with just arm muscles.
"Uggh" I thought, "I can't support my own body weight with just my arms."
My instructor came over and gently supported my body as I worked into the pose.
"You don't have to try this pose if you're not ready, but I think you can do it" she calmly said while she stood next to my shaking body as it threatened to collapse at any moment. I made it into the pose, not gracefully mind you, but I did it. After the class as I was heading to my car, one of my fellow students shouted out to me "You did really good today Cheryl!" My inner child glowed with pride!
My day did not go as planned, it went better! I was able to let go of my rigid beliefs of how my day should flow, and in doing so I gained new insight into my true authentic self. I will admit, I'm not always good at going with the flow, but it was a great reminder that God/Spirit is always present. Sometimes with things are not flowing the way we think they should, that may be the time to let go, and go with the flow and see what insights you gain. Try it. If you are having one of those days that just feels off, try sitting quietly and ask yourself "what should I be doing". The answer may surprise you. See what insights you gain by flowing.
Hugs and love Cheryl
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